Beginning

I've always wanted to write a blog but I never thought I write good enough. And I still don't... But I'm going to write one anyway. Does blogs usually have theme? My theme? Well just my life. :) I'm a  Christian homeschooled girl and there comes battles with that as well as new discoveries and redemption. I'm not perfect and some people know that better than myself. Lol.

I was saved at the age of 10. It was a school night, and Someone moved me to write a story. It was a rather confusing story now that I think about it but then it made perfect sense to me. You are probably wondering what it was all about-- well, it was about humans being robots and that the controllers are God and Satan. (See? Didn't I tell you it was confusing?) Well the story went somewhere like this: If us humans choose to let God control us, then that it good and if we let Satan control us, that is not good. I don't know but somehow it made perfect sense to me. I showed it to my younger sister and after reading it, she asked me if I wanted to get saved. And I said yes. We went downstairs and asked my Dad how I can get saved and he showed me and we prayed. That was an eventful night of July 5, 2005. Since then, as every Christian goes through, sometimes I would be burning for God. And there were times when I was just cold towards Him and there other times when I didn't really care. But I want to change that and that hasn't been easy. Jesus did tell us that living for Him wasn't just a walk in the park.

The title of my blog came from Jeremy Camp's song called 'Take You Back'. It's such a powerful song to me because many times I've fallen I feel defeated and angry at myself. There were times when I could have never forgiven myself for it. But Jesus forgave me and will always take me back. There are so many things I've failed at and it's mind blowing that God would forgive me and take me back and restore me. Sometimes, I don't even understand His love. My mind cannot grasp His love. It's way too much. And every time I think of that, I cannot do anything except fall on my knees and worship-- and what worship He deserves! And much more that I am not adequate to give! But all He wants is His children committed into worshipping and living for Him. And oh, it's easier said than done, isn't it? Well, He's not going to leave me or you. He never will.

Well, as a last thought, this blog is about anything really-- my joys, struggles, favs, and such. :)

SW