Lukewarm

lukewarm- adjective
1. moderately warm; tepid
2. having or showing little ardor, zeal, or enthusiasm; indifferent

Have you been lukewarm before? Meaning have you shown little zeal in something? I know I have. When Jesus said that walking with Him isn't going to be easy, He wasn't kidding. My life, as of right now, has been going through a lot of ups and downs. It's never really consistent. One week, I would be devouring God's Word, and the next week, I didn't even touch it, except of Sundays, of course. That's really fickle. Friends and siblings have told me before that I'm too hard on myself and perhaps I am. But still. Overtime, I can't forgive myself for becoming lukewarm because I think that God is tired of being on fire on occasion and being nothing the other. I think that God gets tired of me sometimes. I keep wishing that I would just be consistent. But, one can never really be consistent unless one wants to, right? Every week the Devil is working-- working on trying to make you lost contact with God. A lot of times, when a little doubt creeps up, I let that overtake me. When a bad day comes, I let that control over me. Oh, I always forget that I can win these everyday battles!

Actually, lukewarmness is really an interesting topic. Since I really don't know where I'm going with this post (You know how it is when you start writing, one thing leads to another and you forgot what point you were trying to make? Yeah, that's what's happening to me right now. Didn't I tell you I was bad at writing? Sorry!!) I'll just stop here and hopefully!!!, I can get a study on lukewarmness on.